Friday, August 17, 2012

Looking for the Silver Lining...

I am sad to say that lately I have become a pessimist. I used to always believe in finding the good in everything and thinking that things would get better. My mom always said that bad things happen in three’s. So, after my third unlucky event, I thought I was in the clear. But, I kept collecting the bad!  What happed to my three good in between?

I tried having a good cry. I tried that 20+ times. That didn’t help. I did the only next logical thing I could think of. I started to read my daily horoscope. A lot of my characteristics of being a Virgo are true, but my horoscope has left me feeling more confused. I looked into going to a psychic…but they are expensive! 

After talking on the phone to my oldest brother Troy, he told me that I made him want to hang up the phone and shoot himself because I was so depressing. It hit me, I have to take a hard look at my life and re-evaluate and find the good.

After 6 interviews for teaching jobs, of which I didn’t get. I will be a building sub at Troy High next year. That isn’t the silver lining I was looking for!  Then I thought about my writing. Subbing will give me the time and opportunity to write. Next week I am pitching my books to 13 different editors and agents. Then the end of September I am going to Ohio for a writing conference with Stacey Hays. Subbing will allow me to finish my edits and to move on to the next book I want to start.

I am ready for my three good things. I play the lotto twice a week. You can’t win if you don’t play!  C’mon Karma, I am ready for you!!

1 comment:

Stacey Hays said...

I'm very proud of you. For what it's worth, I think this will be a great opportunity to get you re-focused so you can dive into what you should be doing.